The New Me
I broke up with him. He cheated. He wouldn’t commit. He begged me to come back. I said no. He was devastated. He wanted to marry me. He just needed a little more time. I gave him too much time. He said I was the love of his life - his soul mate. He was never going to love someone the way he loved me. I didn’t believe him anymore – I was moving on with my life.
So why am I so upset to find out that he has a new girlfriend?
It’s not because I want him back. It’s not because I ever think it would work out between us again. It is because I am alone. He broke us and sent us both spiraling into the cruel world of singledom. And I am still in that world. He gets to always have a brunch date. She will listen to his stories about the crazy boss and hug him to sleep. And I will brunch with the girls, complain about my job and go to bed alone.
It’s not that I am not happy with my life. I love my life. I have tons to do. I have the most amazing friends and a wonderful family. Boys think I am cute and girls think I am sweet. I make enough money to buy the new Marc Jacobs handbag and I am living the life I didn’t think I would ever live.
But I am alone. Still going on blind dates. Online dating. The queen of the three month “relationship”. And he is now dating someone for over a year. He moved on before me. And even though I don’t want to be with him, I am bitter.
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I ran into the same thing a few months ago. While home visiting my friends and family, my mother happened to mention that she had ran into my ex of two years. She said that she looked good and had changed her hair. Then added that she was seeing someone. Even though we had been broken up for two years and hadn’t talked in one year, it felt like a knife going through my heart. Same deal. She moved on and has someone in her life while I’ve been single almost a year now with my previous “relationship” being a handful of months. Emotions don’t understand the rules.